Listening to Kirk Franklin's "I Am" as the tears trickle down my eyes.... These songs know just the right spot to touch to bring out all the emotions...
So many series of events like strings and then one crowning moment when the barn bust open... Now I understand the science of transferring agression.. they had no clue why I would react like that....
So lying on my bed I decided to take stock of my life and the season of Easter and the events that led up to the point where we began to celebrate Easter..
Hmmmmmmmmm.... I am one blessed child of God, God has been faithful even in my unfaithfulness and my failings, God never gave up on me, day by day he keeps me and reminds me of his love for me even when I didn't love myself most times...
Sometimes I have thought about the cowardly way our and God tells me I love you and everything will fall into place... I have lost my way so many times and I still lose my way but He has been patient all through, making me know He will always be there to hold my hands through it...
Sometimes I hear the cynicism in people's voice but every single time You tell me I matter, I am your daughter made in your image... sometimes I wonder whatever did I do to deserve this kind of love from God... it's hard so hard sometimes but the fact I know You have my back makes me go on and on...
It feels like Dejavu, like I have been here before but you tell me no matter how many Dejavu u have I will be there for you... I miss it, Lord I really miss my way sometimes purposely but you never judge me, I run into your arms when I see the first sign of trouble...
So going through Easter I cannot but be grateful for the ultimate sacrifice that bore me this great gift that I can come back as many times as I need to and you will be there....
All the times when you saw one set of footprints in the sand I was carrying you (footprint) so many times you have carried me like today... You are carrying me cos I cannot walk on my own....
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